so today i started the book the 'Love Dare' for like the 5th time. ha but i am really going to read the whole thing this time && take as much as i can from it! i want this book to help me think more about how i need to love nick, unselfishly, expecting nothing in return. so over the coarse of me reading this book i am going to try and talk about what i learn :)

Love is patient. Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love. -- Ephesians 4:2 NIV

i need to learn to be slow to anger. i need to be the one that even when i am hurt or frustrated i stay calm. anger is not going to make anything better, it will only cause things to get worse. when a person is patient is stops problems before they even start && it causes problems that have already started to calm down. PATIENT IS WHERE LOVE MEETS WISDOM. when a person is patient, especially in a relationship, it gives the other person permission to be human, which is what we are. i am going to practice saying nothing negative to nick. this is going to take practice, cause sometimes i don't even realize that i am saying anything negative. i am going to be slow to anger and if i am going to say anything negative, i am going to say nothing at all.

Love is kind. Be kind to one another, tender-hearted, forgiving each other, just as God in Christ also has forgiven you. -- Ephesians 4:32

kindness is love in action. i love this saying. kindness is a result of love. kindness intertwines with patience. patience avoid a problem; kindness creates a blessing. preventative and proactive approaches. they help each other out. being kind makes people want to be around you, and that is what i want more than anything. i want people to want to be around me, because i am the kind of person they enjoy spending time with. especially nick, but i also want this from people i care about, such as friends and family.

"Do not let kindness and truth leave you; bind them around your neck, write them on the tablet in her heart. so you will find favor and good repute in the sight of God and man" -- Proverbs 3:3-4 // this is such an amazing verse. kindness needs to be with you at all times, not just when it is convenient for you. God wants you to wear in on your sleeve.

Gentleness. Helpfulness. Willingness. Initiative. you need all of these to practice kindness.

learn to respond with tender words. be quick to learn what your significant other/friends/family needs. rather than complaining and making excuses, learn to compromise and accommodate. kindness thinks ahead and takes the first step. the step that you wish the other person would take.

"She opens her mouth in wisdom, and the teaching of kindness is on her tongue" -- Proverbs 31:26 // -- i want nick to describe me as a kind person, gentle, and helpful. i want the to be the one to take the initiative.

Love is not selfish. "Be devoted to one another in brotherly love, give preference to one another in honor" -- Romans 2:10

i am really can be such a selfish person, but i always recognize it after the fact. i guess even when i was little i didn't want to share my crayon's to even now not wanting to share my french fries. selfishness is a trait that most people deal with, some people deal with it better than others. but unfortunately i am not one of those people. love 'does not seek its own' Corinthians 13:5

true love looks for ways to say 'yes' -- looking to make others happy other than yourself. i am going to strive to make nick happy by compromising my desires that are important. but right now, i am going to be selfless.

i bought nick a card && i made him brownies today. i know he will love both. just the thought that i will make him smile inside makes me smile. i love him more than anything in the world && i want to prove that to him. i love you nry. && we will get through this rough time before i leave to go to school. God has a plan && we will make it! :)

love conquers all.