YOU lift me up //

Sensitive. Emotional. Heavy-Hearted. 
these all describe me at this point in time.

Lately my heart has been heavy & I have been super emotional, way more than usual. It seems as though every little thing causes me to tear up inside.


God has been speaking to me a lot lately. 

I think he is trying to tell me something -- & I have been trying my best to listen with an open-heart & open-mind. which isn't exactly easy to do.  I think He is trying to tell me that I am special  & that He loves me for who I am & that He wants to be my best friend, always. He wants to be the person that I come to for everything -- the sad times, happy times, the I don't know what to times, & hey, I need your help times, oh & those just because I want to talk times.

I have not always been the kind of Christian that I have always longed to be. I struggle on a daily basis. I say that I am going to read my Bible, pray, & talk to him daily but I seem to get side-tracked & wander away from my desire to be close to him. Maybe I am afraid of rejection? But why would I be? Bc God is THAT amazing & He does NOT reject!

Satisfy us in the morning with your unfailing love, that we may sing for joy and be glad all of our days... Psalm 90:14

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God wants us to seek him first thing when we wake up. His desire for us is for us to start our day off with him so that we can be filled with His grace + mercy + unfailing love. I have been trying to start my day off with the Lord even if it is just listening to Christian music!! Listening to Christian music puts me in the happiest of moods & even helps me change my thoughts + attitude to be more Christ-like. Being Christ-like is one of my greatest desires because I want others to see Christ through me. This has always been a struggle I have had because I seem to always channel negative thoughts, which is not something I want at all. I want to be a Godly woman who people strive to be around & confide in & I realized {keep realizing} that I can not do it alone. 
Christ alone will get me to where I need to be. 
He is the only one who can help mold my heart to be more like His. 

Christian music has seriously been my go-to to get me through my long stressful days. It truly speaks to me & makes me think about all the little things that Christ wants me to think about throughout the day. And I {love} when I am having one of those down moments or my anxiety kicks in & a Christian song pops in my head & changes my mentality. What's so crazy is that I can  remember these songs but I can't remember lyrics without the music to save my life, no joke! It makes me realize just how Great My God is!

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight // Proverbs 3:5-6
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A song by: The Afters // {Lift Me Up} is one of my absolute favorites atm. The lyrics speak so close to my heart. 

You lift me up with Your love
You lift me up with Your love
You lift me up with Your love
You lift me up

Waiting for the sunrise
Waiting for the day
Waiting for a sign that I'm
Where You want me to be

You know my heart is heavy
And the hurt is deep
But when I feel like giving up
You're reminding me

That we all fall down sometimes
When I hit the ground

You lift me up when I am weak
Your arms wrap around me
Your love catches me so I'm letting go

You lift me up when I can't see
You heart's all that I need
Your love carries me so I'm letting go

You lift me up with Your love
You lift me up with Your love
You lift me up with Your love
You lift me up

I know I'm not perfect
I know I make mistakes
I know that I have let You down
But You love me the same

And when I'm surrounded
And when I lose my way
And when I'm crying out and fallen down

You are here to lift me up when I am weak
Your arms wrap around me
Your love catches me so I'm letting go

You lift me up when I can't see
You heart's all that I need
Your love carries me so I'm letting go

How do you spend time with the Lord?